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Someday

I have always liked this song. I really do...

Someday, you're gonna realize
One day, you'll see this through my eyes
By then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared

I know you don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well, I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long, won't take long

CHORUS
'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Right now, I know you can tell
I'm down and I'm not doin' well
But one day, these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry sweet goodbye

Hair Done for Php 500

Oh yeah, after sporting my mid length hair for ages, I am now officially a fan of the "bob". So there I was, with Sarah on one Saturday afternoon, talking about how I want to change my look for once and for all.

Off we went to a popular salon in Podium and told the stylist I desperately want a change and this involves the famous, Katie Holmes. So okay, I did not hear any objections so just few minutes and alas, I got what I wanted.

And I just have to mentioned too that so far, it was my most expensive haircut to date.. I never paid Php 500 for a cut. Never. But Sarah told me, she thought it's worth it. And so I believed.

I guess she's right. I got compliments left and right. Everyone noticed the change. From work up to my HSBC friends then to Nini. They all liked it.

Except for one person... My favorite Chinese guy never noticed it...not until a week's trip from Beijing and down south. What the hell???!!!! 

And yeah right... he didn't like it... Hahahaha... I'm uber "deadma" to the world... But he said, he still thinks I'm cute... and pretty (this part I had to force him to say....) 

Yeah, he is nasty sometimes..

Saisaki Naman

Uuwi ka na ulit...wala ng kukulit
Kita mo sa  ngiti ko kahit di ko man ipilit
Kita pa rin ang lungkot, di ako makatawa
Iiyak ako... Gusto ko sumama

Bakit ba kasi you live miles away
If ever sana, you can just stay
O sige, wag na nga
Pero please, pwede ba?

Nakakatawa pero bakit miss na miss kita
What is four months naman di ba?
Nakakapagod, pero sabi nila
Pag may love, ganun talaga.

Di na ako iiyak, pangako yan
I know you will think of me kahit saan pa yan
Africa o Australia or Indonesia
I am sure ikaw pa rin magpapasya.

Till we meet again
See you when I see you again
Isipin mo na lang parati
Ang buffet natin sa Saisaki.

Glorietta

Sorry na kasi napaiyak kita
Napaisip kahit di naman tama
Bakit nga ba mahirap mag English
Maintindihan mo sana, how I wish.

Okay...crazy ako sometimes
Pero aminin mo, di naman at all times
Half crazy... baka pwede pa
Sabi mo nga puro lang ako ganda.

Minsan kasi you don't have to remind me
I understand it, believe me
May nakatago naman akong talino
Bukod sa malinis kong mga kuko

Sige na, peace na tayo
Tatanggapin ko na ang sorry mo
Alam ko, di natin matitiis
Ipusta ko pa maganda kong kutis.

Come on, cheeky, smile naman dyan
Wag na tayong magsisihan
Pogi ka pa rin kahit wala ka ng mata
Kahit sabihin mo pang puro lang ako ganda.

I will try not to be sensitive
Basta sayo, I know I believe
Ikaw pa rin gusto ko kasama
Sa movie sa Glorietta.

ABBA and Why You Should Take a Chance on Me

I recently watched the movie, "Mamma Mia" over the weekend and after the movie was finished the ABBA and their music kept on playing on my mind.Over and over again. Okay.. like there's no tomorrow..

I always thought I was a fan of ABBA. While I was growing up, I watched one of their concerts in Betamax and that time, I liked the song, "Dancing Queen" because I always liked dancing but dancing never liked me. But anyways, I liked the songs in the movie and Marcy and I over his favorite Chicken Chopped Salad at CPK, talked about the movie and how we liked it. Marcy has always liked musical and this one was no exception.

So here I am, I shall post the lyrics of my last L.S.S. (last song syndrome) taken from my now favorite movie, "Mamma Mia".

PS: Come on, take a chance on me:)

TAKE A CHANCE ON ME
By: ABBA

If you change your mind, I’m the first in line
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you’ve got no place to go, if you’re feeling down
If you’re all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain’t no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try

Take a chance on me
(that’s all I ask of you honey)
Take a chance on me

We can go dancing, we can go walking, as long as we’re together
Listen to some music, maybe just talking, get to know you better
’cos you know I’ve got
So much that I wanna do, when I dream I’m alone with you
It’s magic
You want me to leave it there, afraid of a love affair
But I think you know
That I can’t let go

If you change your mind, I’m the first in line
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you’ve got no place to go, if you’re feeling down
If you’re all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain’t no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try

Take a chance on me
(come on, give me a break will you? )
Take a chance on me

Oh you can take your time baby, I’m in no hurry, know I’m gonna get you
You don’t wanna hurt me, baby don’t worry, I ain’t gonna let you
Let me tell you now
My love is strong enough to last when things are rough
It’s magic
You say that I waste my time but I can’t get you off my mind
No I can’t let go
’cos I love you so

If you change your mind, I’m the first in line
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you’ve got no place to go, if you’re feeling down
If you’re all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby can’t you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
(take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me)

Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby can’t you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
(take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me)

Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa ba-ba
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me ..

Life is what you make it.

After 3 months of being in the state of shock, disbelief and loneliness, I finally had the courage to accept things as they are and let go of the things that make me sob and cry.

Okay, it's not love friends.. It's true love hahahaha.. alright, I am just kidding... Actually its what they call quarter life crisis.

So here I am, doing some things alone again. These are the things I am up to these days:

1. I learned how to watch movies alone
2. Travel alone... Next destination: Cebu with Ken--- he promised will show me around.
3. Having dinner my myself over my vegetable pasta. It makes me realize how good it is to have someone share a meal with you.
4. My mobile phone looks like some hairbrush to me. I look at it as if it is a stuff of the past. Sometimes I think I don't need it anymore.
5. I can go anywhere and still don't feel bad about it..
6. I am buying shoes again.. It only means I am a little stressed.... okay, maybe a little sad, hahaha.
7. I becoming more obsessed in reading again. The last time I was like this was when I was still single.
8. I developed a crush on Mark Anthony Fernandez...hahahaha.. Even I am surprised.
9. I shall start exercising again...hopefully I can buy a nice running shoes because the one I have is size 9.. By the way, I am size 10.

This is my mantra these days: Go out.. Live life. Life is what you make it.

Giselle's Dance

I have known Giselle for three years now. We were at the same class during our HSBC training days. At first, I thought she was "suplada" because she rarely smiled
and was not sure whether she liked me. Then we became seatmates and that was it. We were talking constantly and became instant friends.

Fast forward... she quit HSBC because .... oh, actually I am not sure why, hahaha.. But I know for a fact that she had other plans that time and thought that was the best thing to do. Then when I moved to NS, I asked her if she wants to join me since this can be a good career opportunity. True enough, she aced the interview and boommm... we are officemates again.

Last Saturday was Giselle's special day.... It was her wedding day.. Right after work, I rushed to their church and there she was.. looking like a princess in her white wedding gown.. When she danced for her hubby, I could only smile and was left teary eyed... The Hawaiian dance she had for that day was awesome... She can give the SexBomb dancers a run for their money, hahahahaha...

I didn't know I was teary eyed until my glasses became blurred and my eyes felt a tear. It was the most beautiful thing in the world. She was dancing for Brigham like they are the only people in the room. She was smiling like she has never smiled before. She was dancing like she has never danced before. Her hands were demonstrating how a woman can love a man like she has never loved before. I have never seen Giselle happy until that day.

It was Giselle's dance I kept thinking that day and how it made a difference. I told Marcy if I could be that graceful, then I would only have 1,011 wishes left in this world. I don't know how to describe it because my eyes cannot fully understand it.. Only my heart does..

Just so you know, I told Giselle I am learning that dance. I am not even sure if I will ever have the chance to dance like it's the greatest performance of my life...I know once day, Giselle's dance will be my dance too...For that one great guy..

Geez... I better start practicing now..

Random

While I am alone in my small apartment, I thought of some random things about me, and here are them... yung iba, ayaw ko i- share.. saka na lang.

1. Mahilig ako sa purple...Sabi nila it's a dead color.. well obviously not, because I have a colorful personality, lol..
2. Lamigin ako, pero hate ko din pagpawisan.. Oh man!
3. Mahilig ako sa donuts... Goodluck na lang sa asukal...
4. I sleep like a baby.. I need at least 8 hours of sleep every night or else, I would not know what I am talking about.
5. Hindi ako domesticated na tao... But I can always try.....:)
6. Most outrageous thing I have ever done was to kiss a stranger... He turned out to be such a gentleman... Yun nga lang, long distance love affairs never work for me.
7. I so love shoes... How many pairs I've got? Check out my small apartment to know how many pairs I've got..
8. I bought a fake Kipling big in the past.. wala lang.... feeling chinese hahahahaha..
9. When I am upset/ mad, you can't get me into talking... My lips are sealed.
10. One of my dreams is to be a good dancer.. Pero wala eh... I am such a terrible dancer..
11. Okay, singing din... pero wala pa rin.. Di umubra. O sya, terrible singer din ako.
12. I bought some lipsticks and blush I have never even used up.. Sayang..
13. Lately, I wanted to be a make-up artist just like my favorite person, Marcy.
14. When I read Sophie Kinsella's Shopaholic series..... I thought how can she describe me when she doesn't even know me, hahahaha.
15. I am scared of snakes... Terribly that I can't even bear to look at them.. Worst, I can vomit just the thought of seeing them.
16. When some guy asks me: " Are you conservative, liberated or open minded?"  I smile and say: "I can be whatever you want me to be..."   At naloloka sila..... Sabi ng friend ko, tunog porn star daw, hahahhahaha...
17. Hate ko talaga to conform... and I don't worry to much.... Only a little, hahaha.
18. Dream ko for Marcy is to find her dream guy... I want my bestfriend to be happy.. every day.. every minute.. and every second..
19. I mentioned to Marcy while in the cab the idea of us going to the next step, you know the boyfriend- gf thing... Nag pretend akong seryoso ako sa sinabi ko..Tumili sya ng malakas sabay sabing: "oh my God, you are a lesbian!!!"  Sana pwede mag joke di ba, hahahahaha... Oppppsssss..... 100% girl po ako.... lol..
20. My dream wedding has to be just me and my guy.. no more no less..

The One

The one that got away..
The one that never said I love you
The one that made me feel so happy
Is the one who made me feel blue
The one that I loved
The one that made my heart smile
The one that brought color to my world
Is the one who taught me many lessons
The one who made me feel special
The one who has never said he cares
The one who only smiled when I say I love you
Is the one who does not know how much I love him.
The one who thinks I don't care
The one who thinks I no longer care
The one who heard me say  go on with his life
Is the one I miss at this time.
The one whom I should have kept in my palm
The one I should have never let go
The one I should have never bid goodbye
Is the one I had to let go.
I will be fine sooner or later.
The one that got away
My heart will sure find a way.

Thank You

Thank you--- two words but sometimes we forget to say them. Minsan nakakalimutan, pero kadalasan, ayaw talaga natin sabihin. So now allow me to say thank you to some people:

• My family--- they have this way of making me feel sane amidst all ups and downs. Whenever I feel really bad about something, I catch the first flight home when I have the chance or meet up with my siblings somewhere. We don't talk about my feelings, basta I feel recharge after seeing them.
• Marcy--- I think Marcy is my long lost sister, mahirap explain pero sobrang magkasundo talaga kame and every time we are together, I forget all the things running in my mind. If people think I am funny, I think he is funnier..Thank you so much Ateng!
• Apol--- High school bestfriend. Our friendship goes back since I was 2nd year high school, I think he is one of the most sensible person in this planet. And funny, sobra.
• Beb, JB, Archie, Meg, Jeffie, MO Nadya---- I know life in HSBC will never the same without you.
• NS-- because for the first time, I got into thinking whether this is really my place in the sun. More challenges means more hardwork, and I am willing to give my best shot everytime.
• My highschool supah goodfriends---Nini, Egay, Jowie, Des--- I always look forward in meeting you during weekends. Ngayon pang "byuda" na ako, ahahahahaahaha!
• Guys who broke my heart--- it was sad in the beginning, but I realized I have never been happier knowing that I deserve someone better. Meron pa palang mas cute, mas mabait, mas maganda trabaho, and of course, MAS mayaman, ahahahahaha!
• To P--- I had so much fun memories, last night while talking to you, when I realized you may never had the chance to be here again, I heard myself telling me, " I think I am dying.".. Again and again... like a broken record. But some good things really never last. I knew this was coming and I was just so enjoying the days that I lost track of it. But thank you because I knew in my heart I did the right thing. It doesn't matter whether I mean what I say or not,  what's important is I did the right thing.

Life is indeed beautiful. I will strive harder to be happier each day.